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i’VE never felt this ALIVE….. whu hooh hooh hoo

Whoo..hooh..hooh…!!! roar!!..yes. thats my statement..its very ironic why im on a celebration mode but the real life setting is I JUST LOST MY JOB!!!..recently we had a retrenchment in my current company..dont get me wrong! im not celebrating because im finally out of it.. im grateful about the company’s provision, it radically increases my savings and allows me to build some friendships..and i was able to learn from difficult people..

I have an unresolved call from God. i wanted to serve God in my generation wherever I am, whoever im with.. the VISION is clear and its our life purpose.

the moment i was out in the company, i was left with nothing..but FAITH..so much FAITH…and real joy that is incomparable to the daily routines of coming to work..IM SHOUTIING FOR SIGNIFICNACE..MAKING AN IMPACT..GROWING IN THE INSIDE BY SERVING AND REACHING OUT…..

I bought a new planner because i belive that im aboout to do what God has called me to do. I had an audition with the music team in UP….i sung my own composition..im honored and blessed to be surrounded with men and women of faith.. im inspired and excited to juts be around them and support them in the vision that God has planted in our hearts.

I always hear our pastor say, ” At the end of our lifetime, its not the career that you build, the houses you acquire or the savings you’ve got..but the relationship you have build in your lives…

So, let me say it again..I;ve never felt this ALIVE…

You live to fight for something…and you die for a worthy cause…

Whoah! its been a long time since I had my last blog..A lot has changed and my journey has gotten to its wonderful road..I WAS RESTORED..hurray!..I remember the earliest entries I had complaining about my situation — and not pursuing my passion…But things are beginning to unfold these days —

Its becoming better — and I believe God never fails to surprise me — to change me and to make me the kind of woman that he always wanted me to be…*wink

I became part in the worship team for the youth service — GOD knows my passion to see students worshipping GOD..and its a great priviledge to be given this role of ushering them in his presence..Right before my very eyes — i see miracles of GOD touching lost souls and bringing them to the loving arms of our Heavenly Father — Who doesnt want to stay in God’s courts???

Indeed God will change the hearts of young men and women to be totally drawn to him — to HATE sin and to LOVE the things of GOD…

I dont have work today so I was able to watch the new show of Boy and Kris — where Osang and Ms. D happens to be their guest…They were talking about true beauty then suddenly GOD was being glorifed in he conversation and Osang even boast about her new relationship in Christ…That was great! ..GOD is indeed in the process of restoring people…He is awesome..I cant even find the right words to say how amazing it is to know GOD in a deeper way…

Im currently enrolled in ENLI 1st year –hoping that I will be equipped and ready wherever GOD will send me…Im on my 2nd week and so far I love the impartations from my teachers — the insights are great and life-changing! ….

I couldnt wait to see myself changed from the inside out — I made a prayer to myself that after the ENLI — its my prayer that i will be able to capture the heartbeat of GOD and it will become a natural part of my system….

Whoah..tilll the next blog

its time to do some blogs again…

whoah! how do i begin? MOVE ON..HANG ON.. thats the word i have for myself today…
masyadong maraming nangyari.. and things are getting out of control…but WAIT..

im not a loser..no matter how many blows and attacks the enemy will point on me..

i will not buy that…i know what I can become in Christ…
the real battle starts….

i may have fallen to some traps that are subtle and I may have lower down my guard…

i may experienced deceit and false hopes.. 

i may have allowed myself to get hurt many times…

but this ordeal is OVER.. it has to stopped…

my heart is so delicate that no matter how pure my intetntions are in loving in giving and in sharing……

when you share it with somebody else apart from God’s will its a meaningless unworthy waste that could have been use for something greater….

I learned my lesson the hard way…

Amidst it all… one thing is certain…

God’s LOVE trancends all.. keeps me pure and will always bring me back to the  very purpose of my existence…

IT’s time to bounce back…

A VICTORIOUS LEAP…..A SHOUT OF HURRAY!!!!!!!!

My heart is back again to its safe place….

A place of SECURITY AND LASTING peace…

It will no longer wander..it will no longer be misused…

ONLY for what really matters…

TO LIVE AND LOVE for HIS glory…..

ROCK ON chick!!! wear glasses… your future is too bright!!

Im coming very early today at work. I just want to find time expressing my thoughts through blogs. Im living on my own now. For the past 23 years im living with my parents.and its so exciting to practice independence.Of course I have to be responsible and trustworthy when it comes to the choices that I make in life. There are critical choices that I have to make. Its so odd that im living alone as compared before when I am surrounded by people from different ages.

I miss the usual family atmosphere with welcoming voices from my two brothers arriving from school while the TV is playing on its loudest mode and my Mom cooking in the kitchen while my younger cousins are playing outdoors and my Aunts are coming in with so many stories to tell.Yeah right!! Im not a child anymore. I used to be the center of attention in our house because of my funny antics and loud stories. I make fun with all the people in the house and they accepted me for who I am even at my worst.That’s what I miss about FAMILY.They will always be there for you no matter what.

But of course the phases of life begun to unfold.I got employed far from our house and I have no choice but to relocate.GOSH!! Im living out of my comfort zone.Its a pretty challenging and lonely road.I get to care for my own stuff without the loving aid from my Mom.I have to pay for my own bills.I have to learn how to adjust myself from different types of people. Its a daunting task.Though its hard I just have to enjoy it because its normal for some adult to undergo changes in their lives.

Thanks to the guidance that I got from the bible.I dont want to ruin my life by the pleasure of independence.The Bible keeps me grounded to the best thing in life.ENJOYING LIFE IN The SIDE OF THE GOOD.

wHOAH!!! Make the most of every single days. Know what’s important.At the end of the day FAMILY still matters.

I am supposed to take my long hours of sleep today. I made a committment to myself that I will value my sleeping hours though i have an irregular working schedule. My bestfriend and my highschool pals texted me for a night out at Libis earlier but it seems like im not in the mood to be with anyone just for this time.

I have been surrounded with people eversince this week started. We had a company night out that we all terribly enjoy. We’ve watched the "Little Man" then went to Mall of Asia and enjoy a pretty good meal there and went out for some bar hopping where i get to jam with the band and play guitar as well. Whoahhh!!!! that was FUN…

That is my PASSION by the way. I love to communicate my soul through music. I dont care performing in a crowd or small audiences. I dont perform anyway!!!!.. It doesnt matter to me whether people likes it or not. I expressed who I am and it liberates my soul. This is how GOD wired me to be.

Then came a week of pressure to make appointments — to put revenue in the company— to do what God has assigned me to do —and to do it EXCELLENTLY to give glory to his name.I have a successful week I may say and as always the LORD provided my needs beyond my own imaginations. He has always been faithful though I lack faith sometimes and choose to operate based on my limited understanding..

That leads me to create a post in this blog.. I wanted to shut my ears from the world’s invitation for this time.. Im terribly missing GOD. I wanted to spend time with him and look at my life from his own perspective.

Its weekend by the way and as usual I have to go back from Sucat to QC and just spend time with my family. People again.Im surrounded with people everywhere but I have to fight for my quiet time and rest my soul once again to the author of PEACE…

Gotta go now.. The KING is waiting for me…

In each person’s life we will always have the chance to be surrounded by different types of people - some are just passerbys, some are meant to stay for long - and some left a very significant part in our life that are worth emulating..

I compiled heroes in my circle - those who touched my life in one way or another..some seemed to be unnoticed - but later did I know - THAT CHANGED MY LIFE FOR GOOD.

Its always a big pleasure to come across with women of faith - those who are just ordinary faces in a crowd but with so much to offer in this world.

I personally wanted to thank ATE NOEMI. She has been an example to me.Though we havent had any chance to be with each other for so long but her life is a testimony to me..I grew up in her life experiences and her teachings..I saw the faithfulness of God through her. She is an inspiration of purity and holiness.Im greatly inspired by her LOVESTORY. She served the Lord in her generation and she is reaping the rewards of all her labor of love. She touched my heart in her own little ways. She provided me a shelter when I was just a working student.

Next in line is my super hero - ATE RHEA. She has been my mentor eversince - from the basic steps of dressing up, make-ups, table etiquettes and courtesy words. More than the outward influence - it is her passion for GOD that inspires me the most. A short talk with her will rub you faith to the next level- I am challenged to be better - It feels good to be around her. She pushes me beyond my shortsightedness. We had some arguments and healthy conflicts in the past that made me stronger as a person. She is consistently touching women’s lives around the world. Now that she is in Turkey- doing the same thing that she does BEST..

I promise to continue with this blog.. The list of my all time heroes goes on and on. When it comes to focus and dedication - I look up to my very good friend RHEA. She is my sister in the Lord. We grew up together-from the elementary teachings of our faith to the hard knocks of reality. We laughed about anything and everthing in the world. We share the same passion- sometimes we share the same frustrations in life -When im not okay internally she understood me very well and listens attentively. My Christian life is a lot of fun, excitement, and becomes more interesting because I have her by my side…Miss ko na nga tong pakner ko ! — but she is now answering God’s call for her to be in Fairview.A very dependable worker- soft in the outside but so much strength in the inside..

Next in my list is my favorite cellmate- VANESSA. Though she hardly speaks and testifies - her lifestlye speaks louder and her humility keeps me grounded. Im always delighted to be around her and to be in their house.She was raised up very well by her Mom. Their house is a testimony of God’s goodness and abundance. I am blessed by her simplicity and her security in Christ.I envy her passion for Arts and KIDZ Ministry.

I will never forget my super productive and dependable friend - ALLEN. Small but terrible. She was there in my lowest point - making her best efforts to help me beyond imaginations. Her resources are mine. She gave out generously even if it hurts. She is consistently reaching out those who need help. I missed our times together staying up late in their house at QC where we talk about from the most nonsense topics to the most significant ones - like impacting the world for God.

Of course my current mentor - ATE JACK. One of the mighty women I have around. Her principles and convictions are unimaginable. I am all praises to her.She has fought for GOD in the secular place. She stood up for righteousness when everyone else is doing what is contrary to what God desires. Her wisdom and discipline are enviable.

I welcome more women in my circle whom God will put to bring out the BEST in me. I AM WHO I AM TODAY -because SOMEBODY invested their lives for me - and I will PAY IT FORWARD.. That is the BEAUTY of relationship with beautiful women… Building lives together for a worthy cause. Nothing beats the experience of sharing lives together with great women like these.

I may not say these very often- but I LOVE YOU GUYS ! You are my inspiration to continue the race and not give up because you set an example - and I wish to do the same thing.

"THERE IS SO MUCH TO ENJOY IN THE SIDE OF THE GOOD."

Its rainy Monday..I just had enough sleep last night coming from a fulfilling activities yesterday..SUNDAY is the Lord’s Day for me.. I made a decision to be at my BEST to MINISTER every Sunday…I receive a new vision from God about the KIDZ Ministry…Im leading the worship team every 4th week..At first I thought that kids are just kids..but as I was observing them God reminded me that it is a priviledge to be one of the teachers because they ceratinly follow your examples..They are the future leaders of our nation and much of what you are planting to them right now determines the type of leader that they will be in the future…WOW! That’s amazing… That’s why i have to be flexible..I have to be excellent in worship..because God gave me a responsiblity of imparting the vision to this kids…We may not know that one day a desire to sing for the Lord will be planted in their hearts…

That excites me the most about Christianity and following Christ..Though Im not perfect, God’s vision of using me beyond my imperfection is very evident..Im excited to be used by God…

Right after the kids church service, we ate out with the cellgroup at KFC.. We honored one of my dearest friend Vanessa..Its her bday…She has served the Lord since kids..It was fun, so refreshing to be surrounded with nice people who share the same heart like you do.

Then I rushed to my Leadership class..Im always excited to attend my class because there will be a new level of faith, wisdom, annointing and impartation from our loving pastor..I had few talks with my seatmate from UST namely Grace and Pretty..We were all exchanging our impressions about one another because we hardly know each other..It was so much fun..

Then I meet up with the music team..I approached Julius the guitarist if we could come up with a Christian band that will play at every gigs ..Im sold out to this vision from God..I always wanted to perform through music..I list down all the names of my bandmates and faithfully pray for it that our schedules will meet every practice and that we will have contacts for our gigs..

Im so excited for this new things that are coming my way..It is the Lord’s desire that I will maximize my single years doing and serving the LOrd with a joyful heart…

I went home fulfilled and accomplished…Who says being single and having no relationship makes you insecure and insignificant…?????

Wake up Girls ! Boys are not the only source of our security and significance…

GOD is the only source of real security and joy..I encourage you to know God more..Hang around with mighty women of faith..Look for someone to minister..Be useful in the kingdom..Establish healthy realtionship with the opposite sex…Make your single life productive……….

WE ARE DESTINED FOR GREATNESS………..

Yesterday I attended our class in ENLI facilitated by our super funny and intellectual pastor Pastor Noel..As I was sitting in our class, memories of my past peers flashed back..Those were the days when everybody receive a call from God so excited just after the Youth Camp as we all as receiving a fresh identity, a new heart, and a purified soul..

Have gone through Victory Weekend - so passionate to reach out the lost..FREEDOM met us there..A TRUTH ENCOUNTER…The greatest JOY a person in his lifetime CAN  hardly experienced…The moments of emptiness — then abundance..Period of insignificance — then victory…Moments of hardships and persecutions — then testimonies..Time of solitude and loneliness — then celebration…

My CHRISTIAN life is like that..A PARABOLA..Its not an upward series of triumphant events..Its a series of emptying yourself from your own pleasures, from the pleasures of the world, and from the pleasures of SIN….I HAVE TO HATE SIN…

The life of PURITY is soooo hard..GOD’s standards are so HIGH..I admitt that there are seasons in my life that I just wanted to call it quits…I am hard pressed and the corruptions of the world overwhelm me.. I just wanted to forget about — everything..Forget about GREATNESS, PURITY, SIGNIFICANCE and MY CALLING…

But My CALLING is irrevocable — I heard it outright and I UNDERSTOOD God’s plan for me..I made a committment last Youth Camp that I will SERVE THE LORD IN MY GENERATION –I have experieced the FULLNESS of GOd’s LOVE in me that only few people can experienced…I cannot just turn my back on my CREATOR and the SOURCE of everything…

NOW.. — I DECIDED.. I MADE A DECISION.. to live it all out for him…to continuosly seek God and obey his principles — not to be under the curse of religion and legalism.. but UNDER HIS  GRACE and MERCY of A relationship that GOD designed for the both of us.. I dont care what other people would say — I dont care how the world live their lives today — I live to PLEASE GOD..

Its tough..its hard…its war..its a battle..but the BATTLE is not mine..Its GOd’s battle..I just have to be available — for GOd to used me and send me to nations…and im starting my greatness today…

Tears, cries, moment of insiginificance, rejections are just temporary..

THE BEST IS YET TO COME…

"If you are willing and obedient..YOU WILL EAT THE BEST FRUIT IN THE LAND…"

That’s how we fight the race..Fight till the end..No room for quitters.."

God deserves our BEST>.

Dear GOD

Its been a long time that we haven’t had any serious,long, honest and heart warming talks…

I miss the times that you and I are exchanging views about life – my life and your dreams and desires for me…

You know how much I deeply desire to love you and obey you as much as I can…

Your instructions and precepts gave me wisdom as I grow up in faith…

Though I don’t see you, I just know in my heart that my love for you never fades and as you always keep on reminding me……..

To continuosly walk in the ways of righteousness, to live for your glory and to stand for what is true, what is right, what is noble, what is admirable, and what will bring you the greatest pleasure…..

I miss the times that I cry out on bended knees and your presence provides peace in my heart…….

Your WORD illuminates my soul and bring greater joy in my life…I can never live a single day without your presence…

You taught me what unconditional love is….

You taught me how to love the unlovable……..

You taught me how to endure hardships……..

You taught me how to serve and respect people………

My ultimate desire is to LOVE you and to be LOVED by you…..

Nothing can satisfy my soul more than you can do……..

Thank you for loving me despite and inspite of my shortcomings……

Thank you for providing for my needs…..

Thank you for extending your grace and mercy…………

Thank you for the BLOOD you sealed in me that nothing can harm me………

I love you my Savior, My Creator, and My Lord………

You deserve my BEST WORSHIP………

Your Princess